Look Good, Feel Better

American Cancer Society, thank you. Hearst Cancer Resource Center, thank you.

Ok. I guess I feel better. But, It was sort of weird sitting there with other cancer patients. I haven't been in this situation much. Usually, I'm solo, except for Bridgett, my daughter, at my chemo sessions. I really haven't been around other women with cancer. This was a get together of myself and four others. Only one other woman had started losing her hair. I've been there, done that, have some growing back, in fact. The truth is, I am finally in touch with the facts. I had cancer. It was serious. And even though I'm done with chemotherapy, I know I need to realize there are such things as recurrences. But, I'm not living that way. I choose to live in the present, and right now I'm feeling pretty good. Still on the clinical trial experimental therapy, still on a short leash with my oncologist. Every 3 weeks I have therapy which is an antibody supposed to block the blood supply to the tumors. Confusing because I don't think I have any tumors anymore. But hey, I'm a work in progress. I can't possibly accept everything that's changed in my life in the last 6 months.

So, I'm feeling better, yes. Looking good, yes. Just for today, and that's all that counts, this exact moment.